Category: Writing


Someday – someday I tell you – I will be better at updating this blog. Someday….

The title of this post is referring to the fact that I mentioned that I made this Watermelon cake, and that I would post about it – and that’s happened. Of course I made this cake LAST summer which makes it an OLD old post. My bad. At least I think it was summer – in any event, it was really hot out. I need to make that cake again.

The intention of this blog entry is to simply give an update on me. Boring, I know, not nearly as exciting as when I make something. Speaking of which, I made White Chocolate Macadamia Nut Cookies for my sister. Because she’s a cookie NUT. She’s like a Jessi-Made-Something-Sweet nut really.

Back to my point. My last post was made from Plymouth, Michigan, but this post – I’m making it from my new home in the City of Houston, in Texas. That’s right. I HAVE RETURNED HOME. Texas has, for as long as I can remember, always been consdered my home, you know, to me. My heart always wanted to return back to Texas – it’s where I belong. It’s where my Dad’s family is.

Sadly, about a month after we got here, one of my two favorite aunt (the other one being on my Mom’s side) died. She was my dad’s sister, his older sister, and she was sooo nice. I got to see her once before she died, and we were supposed to see each other the weekend she died. I miss her. She was one of those people who deserved the world, but didn’t have much, but considered that the world, because it was all they needed. A remarkable lady, gone far too soon, and I miss her and wish I had had more time with her before it happened.

But that’s what this about, talking about the big change in my life, moving from Michigan to Texas. I have not been to the ocean yet, but you can bet your buttons the first chance I have teh money I’m going. Last time I was there was in 2008, so it’s overdue.

Until next time –

Jessi

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It’s a simple concept. Really it is.

I know that it’s been awhile here since I wrote. My goal of keeping this updated constantly is obviously not happening, but I just forget and get too busy, besides I haven’t baked anything since Christmas. Except that cake. Which didn’t turn out exactly as I had hoped. It was good, but not too good. I’ll give you another update about that at a later time, but right now, I just want to talk about treating others fairly.

Why can’t people just treat everyone else fairly? Why do they have to make others as miserable as themselves? If you’re feeling sorry for yourself, why do you have to make everyone else feel like crap as well? Get up off your lazy ass and do something to make yourself feel better. Do some exercise if it’s your weight – don’t sit around and say “Oh I can’t lose this weight, it’s hopeless.” Change your diet, do some exercise, join a gym, see a nutritionist. If you can’t afford any of this, go to youtube – there’s always some kind of video on there that can help you. Some kind of exercise regimen that can be done from your own home without you having to spend a dime.

However, the person I’m speaking about, I’m sure this isn’t the issue. I have no idea what her real issue is, but I just know that she does everything in her power to make her daughter miserable. And I just don’t understand why she feels the need to do this.

So really, I just want to know, why is it so hard for some people to just be nice? To treat people around them like they want? And then when they don’t get it, they complain about it. Hello? If you’re nice, the probability that others will be nice to you back is pretty high. Ever heard of the saying, “You attract more flies with honey than vinegar?” – or whatever that saying is. Point is, I’m a pretty nice person, in fact I would say that I’m a very nice person, I’m not one to be mean to someone just because I’m having a bad day, it’s not me.

That’s probably why I don’t understand why people do this, because I don’t do it. Why would I be mean to someone, especially someone I loved, it’s just stupid.

Note: While I’m going to talk in first person in this next part, it does not actually refer to me.

She yells at me all the time, over the stupidest things, things that aren’t even my fault, and she knows it. I pay rent, what more does she want from me? Oh wait, more money apparently, or does she want me out of the house? It’s hard to say, because she doesn’t actually say anything specific herself. You asked me to pay rent, so I did, but since it’s my house too, that should entitle me to allow me to keep things in the kitchen, should it not? Apparently, it doesn’t. What does she want from me? To stay in the house? Then please, would you stop doing everything in your power to PUSH ME AWAY?

How does someone treat someone that way and then complain that you’re never around when all you seem to do is complain about things that makes them want to run in the opposite direction and never look back? There is obviously more to this situation that I am referring to her, but I won’t get into it, it’s not my place to spread that kind of stuff, personal stuff, around.

I just, wish people could treat everyone else decently. It’d make the world a much nicer place.

Also, on a completely different note – it won’t stop snowing. And it sucks. I do not like this super cold weather.

– Jessi –

This post is just going to be very short and very quick.

I apolgize for anyone who follows or likes to read my blog here, but as for  updates, here goes:

Writing – I’ve haven’t made much headway at all, at least not anything interesting to post. Although I am heading to the library for a few hours in the next few days to see if I can find out some books on Mythological creatures, you know more than the twenty pages of preliminary research I already have.

Baking – I am going to be making those cupcakes again with that absolutely delicous frosting, but with color this time, and more toppers. Hey, maybe I’ll even make a flower for the design on a few… maybe. Don’t hold me to that, I probably wont. Not that I can’t, I just… hate switching the tips out.
Also I am making a cheesecake – don’t get excited, it’s from a box. But Also I am making white chocolate chip macadamia nut cookies. They are Amy’s favorite – kind of another, sorry I made your cupcakes so late thing.

Life – So my shoulder is STILL injured, go me. And I don’t think I did too much worse with it, but I fell yesterday and I caught like half my body weight with the bad shoulder… so it’s been bugging me a little since. Which I can’t say I feel is a good thing. And my freaking job didn’t even FILE my disability leave paperwork so since October 4th, I’ve had no paycheck, THANK YOU VERY MUCH. I appreciate that fact that my bills just get to pile up. So I faxed it, and they compensate me for lost wages, because now I can’t get my benifits enrolled. Idiotic people. Although, I know exactly who to blame.

Anyway, that’s my update in a nutshell. Until next time – Jessi

Five Days Of Research

This new book idea I had… HAS TAKEN OVER! Just kidding. Kind of.

I honestly have been writing down research notes for the past five days. Intermixed with running errands and keeping my DVR clear, any other spare time, I’ve been researching mythical creatures for my book. Seriously. My bed, where I work, is covered in notebooks, pens, markers, my pencil case, a Harry Potter book, which I was using as a refrence to something. I am well aware that the information on any magical creatures in Harry Potter book is basic at best, if not made up completely, but having a well based knowledge on these creatures, fictional or not, or the factual based history will help me figure out how I want my characters to act.

I think what I find most interesting about the fact that I am writing a new book, is that for the first time… I don’ t have any clear cut characters. I mean the main character is developing on it’s own, slowly, but I don’t know anything about them. It’s strange, because this is new for me. My main character has always made themselves clear from the very beginning, and I had a very good idea of how they were going to look, but this one, no. I think really, all I know is that it’s a she, and that she has something to do with the Dead. Very unusual for me. But I’m excited.

I’m so into this research and the things I’m learning. It’s FASCINATING. facinating. facsinating. Fascinating… I had it right the first time, go figure. Like today, I’ve so far researched, kappas (which is what I looked at Harry Potter for to see what JKR had them be versus what I had read in my research), centaurs, kraken, hydras and sirens. And that’s just today.  I really haven’t gotten as much done as I’d like, but that’s because life is interspersed with my time for researching.

I have to look after my mom, take her to doctor’s appointments, cook dinner for her (and me), keep on my TV shows, since I usually watch them only off my DVR, I have to keep that thing clear, because they build up fast. Plus I sleep odd hours. And then I have my doctor’s appointments as well, and all the other errands that Ihave to do for the day, not to mention keepig the apartment clean. Although I don’t actually keep my DVR as clear as I should… Anyway, I digress.

But what I was trying to say is that I’d like to have more research done already, since because when I go back to work I’m not going to have as much time to do any of this as I would really like, because I have to do everything mentioned above,  PLUS work. So that’s going to be interesting. I’m pretty good at juggling it all, it just interferes with my writing time.

Like I was saying before I got so off topic, I’m really into my research. Some of it I had already come across in other things I had once done for school, but now I’m actually writing it down and taking in what I am learning. It’s all so very interesting and I’m hoping to find out even more very interesting tidbits of information that I didn’t know before. Overall, I’ve researched wraiths, banshees, Echidna, pheonix’s, harpy’s, fairies, ghouls, genies, furies, gnomes, trolls, unicorns, wendigos, centaurs, hydras, krakens, kappas, sirens and I started to research on dragons, but I’m trying to hold out on the big ones like dragons, vampires, werewolves, and elves, you know because I could spend alot of time on those. Plus… werewolves kind of creep me out. I don’t like the way they look, I don’t like the way the sound when they howl, and the idea of ever actually meeting one… FREAKS ME OUT. I don’t belive in werewolves, but if they were real, and I met one… I’d be in so much trouble. I hate Halloween for the only reason taht I hear those damn howls. Hate them, the howls I mean.

Anyway, that’s my update, that I am still researching and have been for five days. If I stop getting distracted by the TV and facebook I bet I could get alot more done though…

– Jessi

My Books Have No Titles

My goal is to update this blog everyday, or at least every few days. And sometimes there will be more than one blog a day, but that’s just how it is.

I was just looking at my books… well in my head anyway, and I realized that only ONE has an actual title… and I’m not even sure that I like that title for it. But I go through this with my fanfictions too. But I wanted to know if that was normal. And not that I really expect an answer for my question, but I guess, sometimes you just dont’ know what to call it until it’s done. Sometimes I think I have a title for it, and then by the end, it’s totally changed.

But what I wanted to write about today was… well of course one of my unnamed books, that I’ve aptly named “My Life” until I do figure out the name. On my computer it has a name like “The Zoey McGuire Book” because as of right now I think the main character’s name is Zoey. I keep changing it. I changed it again just recently to Ella, but I’m not sure I like it. I think I’m going to change it back to Zoey. Actually yes, for now, I’m changing it back to Zoey. I know at one point her name was Samantha, and it was also something different before that, but I really can’t remember that one. I’m sure it’s in the backlogs of my computer… or notebook papers somewhere.

This story is set in a real life town in Rhode Island… which is crazy because I have never been there, but there was something appealing about setting it in a town that’s so small because the STATE is so small. So I’ve been using google earth to find real places that are there to use in my book. In a way I do believe this book is my baby, but also, so is that other book I’ve been doing so .

The main character Zoey is supposed to be based off me, but as I write the first chapter… over and over and over and over and over and over… (seriously, I’ve rewritten this chapter over 30 times now), she’s not like me as much as I thought she would, be but I guess that’s the point. She’s only based off me. The best friend she has, now she’s like my old best friend to a “T”. But that’s what this book is about at first, the way my friendship was with Julie, and how it fell apart. However, I have to figure that one out, because part of the reason that Julie and mine’s friendship fell apart was because my dad died. And I have no plans for Zoey’s dad to die. The character that is based of Julie’s name is Lindsay… I think. It could change you know. At first her name was Shellyanne, and then it was Christina, and now it’s Lindsay, who knows what it could change to?

Interestingly enough, the minor characters, such as my brother Josh’s character’s has only changed once and I have no intention of changing that  again. His best friend has never changed, and two of my ex boyfriend’s characters names have never changed either. I guess it’s all about finding the name that fits the character just right.

It’s a never ending process it seems. But I’ll get there. You’ll see.

– Jessi

I realized that when I spoke yesterday about Internet being the best friend of a writer, that’s incorrect. Yes, it is vital to the process.

But the other thing that is quite essential is the notebook, the pen, and possibly the laptop or computer, depending on the writer. I simply coudln’t write without any of these things.

Sometimes I have to have that pen and paper to write, other’s I can’t write without my keyboard in front of me. It’s strange. But no matter what, I love to write. And I write best in the middle of the night. I don’t know why, but I do. And I have to have music when I write.

So what may be my best friend’s as a writer, wouldn’t necessarily be someone elses. My best friend’s when writing are my computer, my music, and my pen. Because I put any idea down in notebooks and on post-its, so that I don’t lose it, even if it’s years old, I do find them eventually. I may not use them all the time, but I do find them. Except when my sister finds my post its on the floor and mistakenly throws them away, which, thanks Amy. Thanks for that.

But if any of these things were to fail me and were were to have a falling out… okay. Enough joking. Internet really does help a writer though, but I’ve already posted about that one. I do not need to really go into just how it helps.

Usually I would update you on one of my books. Or my life, but other than some best friend drama (her boyfriend just broke up with her through a text) I have nothing new for you guys. So this is where I will leave you, because the best friend drama needs to stay outta my blog until it passes.

I’ll talk to you next time.

– Jessi

WRITING – BOOK – MYTHICAL

I hate that saying “If It’s On The Internet It Has To Be True.”
What kind of idiot believes that? A moron, that’s who.

But having said that, I am not an idiot (about the interent anyway) nor a moron. I know that when researching anything, and that if you decide to use the internet, you have to be careful of what you read on here. So when I decided to write this book, I had to do some research, and by that I mean I still have alot more to do.

To do a story that is based on the migration of mythical creatures that don’t exist… it’s alot. I mean, clearly Vampires, Werewolves, Chimeras, Dragons, Unicorns, Elves, and many many others, they don’t exist, like REAL ones. The kind from legends and stories, but people who just practice it and belive they are one. I don’t know if I want witches to be in my story, if I do, I want Wizards and Warlocks, but I want them all to be seperate, but you know.. mingled together, if that makes sense.

I’m kind on a toss up between having humans interact in this secret mythical world, like obviously they go and interact with humans in their world, but for humans to discover thier world… SCANDAL. But I’m thinking of having a human forced to because they become a cross of being human and mythical.. which is such a contraditction. But whatever.

I said this was a work in progress.

 

I’ve been researching things like the chimeara, and people like Medusa… although that was more because of my favotire TV show, “Grey’s Anatomy” and that Merideth has the nickname of “Medusa” on there. Anyway. I stumbled upon a werewolf page…. It freaked me out. Not because the idea of werewolves creep me out, but because the picture at the top… it creeped me out. But I definately am going to be taking some liberites with some of these attributes and legends. Like these are the things that mortals believe, and then this is what it really is.

It’s going to be awesome when I get done with the book. Of course, I do need an actual plot before I write anything. Like… a main character. And what their conflict is. I think I already know the main character is going to be a girl. I just don’t know what she’s going to be. I’m highly intrugued though about making one of the main characters this half serpent, half… woman type thing…

And mermaids are totally going to be in the story too, I know that. I think I’m going to have guard thingys for like the big baddie. Who I don’t even know who that is yet. I told you this story is in the devloping stages.

Until Later – Jessi

I have currently in progress, before my latest idea hit me, six stories, now it’s seven. And none of them are really written beyond an idea.

But ever since Harry Potter ended with the last movie last year, I’ve had this want to write my own story, my own story where I create the world. And movies like Avatar, a whole world created from someone’s mind… incredible. Or you know, in books like “Wicked” which I know, isn’t completely made up, it is based off things that could be real, but it’s the fact that there are Quadlings, obviously made up, they dont’ exist anywhere in this world. Or that there could be witches, anyone can do it. It’s amazing to me. And then you know there are other books too, Harry Potter obviously, I mean she made up some of the coolest things for that world. And in Twilight, she took the idea of vampires and twisted it. Yes, some people think it’s stupid that vampires sparkle… but that’s the thing about writing. Take legends, things that people have assumed to be true and take your own liberties.

I want to do that. I want to create a world like that. And I wanted to do it with someone you don’t really see that often, so I thought… Fairies.

So I have this idea for a book on Fairies. Not like Tinkerbell – that will never get beyond a kids cartoon. Besides, my idea isn’t anything like that. Although… they still have never told us how Tinkerbell meets up with Peter Pan… Anyway.

But as I wrote this book, I realized that as much as I love this idea… I would love to do a book where it features all mythical creatures crossing, and trying to hide all of that from the human world. But that’s all I’ll say there. I don’t like to put my ideas out there until after I’ve developed them… and even then I won’t.

But like I said, I have seven books now. Well, six I guess. One is just a sentance that I have never developed a plot for. The rest have some kind of plot.

FAIRY BOOK – About fairies. What else? Really only one of them has an acutal name. I have notes and developed plot for this one. It may possibly be two books, I’m thinking. I came up with idea for this story when I had the urge to create my own world, but with characters or creatures that weren’t so overdone like Vampires and Werewolves.
JULIANNE AND TRISTAN – At this point her name is Julianne, but sometimes I think about changing it. This one, this story, I orginally developed from the movie LEGEND, but since it’s become alot more complicated. So when I write about this one and update eventually, it’s under Legends, because the book is about two people who come from a legendary race that isn’t supposed to exist anymore.
MYTHICAL CREATURES BOOK – This one, I decided to write because I wanted to write a book where creatures from the past, plus possibly ones I make up cross paths, and everything. Humans may be involved, they may not. This idea is just getting off the ground.
TEEN SCENE – This one, I actually wrote out a long time ago on my old computer… and then forgot to save, so I’m trying to reconstuct it from memory. Kind of, some of the things I had on papers, so the characters are the same and even the premise behind the story, but things have changed. I can remember most of it. But sometimes I think my old story Mystic Jewels gets confused in it. That story needed alot of help. As does this one sometimes. But that’s why I’ve never even thought about trying to even begin to get this one published. I also once had a story called Teenage Troubles.
TWINS – This is just this little scene I started. I have no idea where it came from. It’s just sitting there, like one day I just wanted to start writing a story so I did. Truthfully, I’m not sure if this will ever get off my computer.
MY LIFE STORY – This one. This one is a difficult one. It’s kind of about my life. But not exactly. The characters are BASED off people in my life and even some of the events. But the main character (me) she has both her parents, and is an only child. I have a sister. And there are scenes that never happened. Not to mention the fact that she never moved, I moved to three different states. My best friend in teh story, that acutally happened to me in real life, what’s going to happen to her, just not exactly in the same story that mine did. You’ll see. I’ll keep you updated.

Any other updates on my stories and I’ll be sure to keep you updated. Also, if I were to write about EVERY fanfiction I have… this blog would be much much longer.

Only A Year Later…

I should have graduated from the Art Institute, on Sept. 2011, but I didn’t. And I’ll tell you why.

As much as I loved and sometimes hated school, I ran into some problems in that last quarter at school. You should know that I did pass Chocolates and Sugars, as well as Adv. Cakes and Tortes. I’m a whiz when it comes to tempering chocolate, I can do it very well now, thank you. Chocolate tempering is not the reason I failed, trust me.

Wait, I did not tell you I failed, did I? My bad. Well, I failed. Sort of. In my last quarter at school, I had the classes, Showpieces, Cake Decorating, and Breads. I was great, I knew what I was doing, I liked what I was doing, and I was all set up for greatness. Only, I started that new  job I talked about, and a new job who is not lienent with time at all, and having to devote several hours a week I didn’t have to school, wasn’t working out for me. But I needed money to pay for school, and to get money I needed the job. In the end I had to miss school on certain occasions to work, or miss work to go to school. I didn’t have time to do the homework I needed, I was so distracted I coudn’t study… So I dropped breads. And then I wold have passed Cakes, but in my work schedule confusion, I forgot to take my last test, THE FINAL.  So I failed.

And I should go back to school, and I will one day, but that day is just going to to have wait until I’m in a better place.

As for baking jobs… haven’t tried to look, I’ll be honest. I may have one, if I want it. But I sprained my shoulder, so I don’t want to pursue that until my shoulder is better. No good at cake decorating with a busted shoulder. Trust me.

– Jessi

So I’m taking Sugar Works and Chocolate this quarter, as well as Advanced Cakes & Tortes.

But I’m FAILING my Chocolate class right now, which means I’m probably failing Sugar too. So I have to like ROCK it the rest of the quarter, and I’m only failing by like 3 points. But still, it’s failing. And I don’t like failing ANYTHING.

I know how to make it, I just have to be COMFORTABLE doing it. And I’m not comfortable because I’m worried I might mess up. And besides it was my first time, I didn’t have someone helping me the way that Spalding and Kim did were with each other. It’s easy to be good and fine and comfy in what you’re doing when your only doing half. DUH.

And is really fair to lose all 55 points for missing class, and then not be able to make it up AT ALL? Like if I take the time to come in, shouldn’t I get some points for coming in, I mean yah, not all, duh, but SOME? That would be logical. But no, you miss one day you lose 55 points, you miss two and ya miss 110, STUPID, I tell you. STUPID. So yeah, I missed 2 days. That’s why I’m failing. By 3 points. At this point, if I get a freaking 61, I’ll me happy. Which is sad all on it’s own. GREAT. I can’t wait for breads. I’m not missing one damn day, I tell you. NOT ONE. And I’m great at breads too.

– Jessi